I woke for the seventh time this morning instead of the normal sentence and ocular flag waving I woke to a stream of circular logic attempting to plan my day but starting at the end and ending in the middle. 1. Hysteria, sobbing 2. Did I pay for my pre-paid cell phone 3. Did I…
This morning, I woke up with the pulse of transparent movement in my eye. Once again in the rhythm of my heartbeat. Earlier, while it was still dark, I woke up with a phantom guitar pick gripped in my left hand that dissolved into consciousness as I played AC/DC's "For Those About To Rock" using…
In the mornings, there's a pulse in my neck that plays along with my optical migraines. Rhythm with an ocular slide-show only I can see. A veil flickers over my vision blurry pulsing in time with my heart beat. Good morning aura!
I forgot that it is all up to me to create order in my chaos I forgot I am addicted to sugar, chocolate and caffeine I forgot the crash is lower and more spectacular after a binge I forgot that people who offer you what you are addicted to are enablers I forgot that just…
I said I would not post today because it is one of my high anxiety days, but fell asleep last night in Girlie's room watching her breathe, so I'm posting today. I'm sorry. I startled awake on my left side at 2 am face down on my hand in front of my computer a car…
Girly handed her mother a necklace of lace and hammered copper without saying a word. Her mother put the necklace over Girly's head thinking it would be pretty, but she took it off and handed it back to her mother. She said it is yours in no words, you should wear it, it is for…
Pound, pound, pound, pound knock, knock, knock, knock bang, bang, bang, bang my heart is pounding in my head Acetaminophen with codeine side effect mild, but effective at waking me up Fiddle, fiddle, rattle, rattle, tap, tap, knock, knock, Girly knocks at her safety gate, safety gate, safety gate, is she trying to climb it…
Hidden in plain sight You know that feeling you get when you're looking for something for half an hour: keys, purse, wallet, laptop computer. You know you walked by it fifteen times, but you can't see the forest for the trees because your toddler tormented you for hours on end last night because you fell…
Some crazy woman slept on the floor with her toddler toddling around the room dropping books on her head trying to remove individual hairs from her head, I think she licked my forehead, the storm raged outside and I thought about the muddy cleanup cardboard boxes in the neighbors yards newspapers in trees I hope…
Flutterby white butterfly she lands upon the seedlings testing the surface de- ciding nothing to see here time to move along. Moths and butterflies so similar one more buff than the other, they flit they fly they drift why catch them when you can watch them surf the air buffeted single minded looking for a…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 