Digging myself out

If you could foresee one accomplishment in your future, what would you like it to be? from Impromptu Promptlings https://promptlings.wordpress.com/2015/11/24/the-sandbox-writing-challenge-16-crystal-ball/ Iaminahole inthedark wishingfor something otherthan thisbleak darkfogIam in.Nocutting willsolveit Nomedicine seemstocure it,doctors seemtothink itisajoke Iamajoke Imustbefaking WhydoInotwant tobelockedup safeanddrugged untilIcannot feelthepain? Reality is painfulsometimes mixed with joy thedepressive coctail has a purposesothat I can appreciate…

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Stuck with two things

I was hoping to roll over this second morning until I realized that I am stuck on my back with my legs up or down. There is no roll to the left or right, only pain. This is PMS right? an added feature to leaving crime victim stains in bed soaking blankets in cold water…

Note to Self

Do not find things to do in the middle of the night to fight insomnia. The basement is a dangerous place for you- you budding pyromaniac. Those boxes of old patterns are extremely flammable. Cleaning with fire is a bit drastic. Water is not enough when they spill flaming from the wood burning stove. Asbestos…

Math

After an unpleasant parent pick up from a not too pleasant ex and new girlfriend due to My Child being put in the middle and acting like a brat in the parking lot. I would like to ask you for help. Math help. Cross your fingers and lets do some algebra together. Not really algebra…

3am, not 4am, not 5am

Placate the gods Really, cause I have nothing better to do. Obviously, I have pissed off the insomnia gods. I should build a temple in my front yard Set it alight and hope the gods notice before the local fire department. Next month, I will try building a mud tower to placate the angry- pain,…

There is something to be said

When you wake up in pain your car battery is dead but not dead enough to stop the car alarm from going off you realize you have a flat tire, but your starter unit doesn't have enough juice to fully inflate the tire You run inside to get your purse your baby bag her medicine…

Mistakes

My mom had to get me out of the hospital. It was like the doctor (Dr. B) didn't speak the same kind of English I spoke last weekend and they were going to experiment with my medication indefinitely until I brought my mom in to threaten fire and brimstone to get me out of a…

Once Again

I popped awake at 4:36am cause it is fun to be awake in the dark, in the quiet in the house full of breathers sleeping. MY mind is going as fast as my heart rate. I replied to an email, I tried to fix my blog, patchy, glitchy, no featured images unless I repost them…

This is what happened at the hospital, last Friday-Tuesday

This is the letter I will be emailing to the Hospital Inpatient Behavioral Health Satisfaction Survey. I am going to go through and remove the Doctor's names, so that you get a sense of the experience without having the real names of anyone involved. Me and my damn ethics. The names also do not correspond…

There I was

watching one of the many batman movies and without warning I found my self sobbing loud, uncontrolled wake up the household sobbing. The fire in my back was exacerbated by being on my stomach watching a movie in bed, the perfect place the wrong position. I couldn't stop the flow of tears and I could…