North Eastern United States
September 16, 2016
I know we have been together for most of our lives, but I think it’s time we cut the cord that ropes us together to the tracks with the locomotive coming. Any way I look at it, one of us is going to be thrown under the train. I would prefer it be you.
I know you think our threesome with depression is a well balanced relationship. However, I have grown exhausted with your phobias and startle reflexes;
-It’s hunting season, that’s why you hear rifles shooting in the distance.
-The coyotes are not waiting for you to step out of the house at night. They’re eating roadkill.
-You will not drown when you are standing on the beach next to a Great Lake.
-I’m tired of waking up screaming in terror.
Sure, we had some good times. Hiding with you in the high school library during lunch is one of my most fond memories. Working with you in the college art studio in the middle of the night to avoid speaking to classmates is second on my list. That anxiety attack we had in Paris was priceless.
I have simply moved on to better things. I now spend my time reading alone. The shadow of anxiety does not help me write book reviews. You are getting in the way of my life. You always have, but I was afraid to admit it.
I know this is going to be hard. We’ve been joined at the hip for forty-six years. I will even miss you, but one of us has to leave in order for me to miss you. I want to miss you. I need to miss you. You are no longer pleasant and familiar company.
It may take me another five years of weekly therapy and daily anti anxiety medications for me to truly separate from you, but I think you will agree that it is about damn time.
Day Eight: Reinvent the Letter Format
Some might say a post in the form of a letter is trite and overdone. But with the right approach and tone, a letter can tell a great story and get your message across (and it doesn’t have to be negative or bring shame upon another).
Today, write your post as a letter. Approach it in any way you’d like, but if you’re not sure what to write, here are ideas:
A humorous or satirical letter to a celebrity or public figure.
A piece of constructive criticism (or praise) to a politician.
A letter to a thing — a fear, a bad habit, an object, a place, etc.
A note to yourself at a specific age/year in the past or future.
A letter to someone who cannot respond (a loved one who has passed, a fictional character).