Five appointments

My case worker came to pick me up yesterday She is becoming more human less stiff and more compassionate now that she gets it, my chaos is constant. With Bear's hospitalization 60 miles away with no actual date of release, my drop and twitch moments and my drop moments coming more and more frequently No…

I want my Paxil back I want Paxil and a new back I want my old back back and Paxil I want my innocence back so I won't need Paxil I want to not feel pain, while I take Paxil I want to dream of being pain free though Paxil will take my dreams I…

The Falling Season

I'm not a clutz but I look like one recently I have been falling a lot. My culprit is my back spasms that come out of nowhere they are triggered by movement strain, walking, sitting while sleeping or waking. My favorite spasms are the screaming spasms that remind me of my brother's charlie horses when…

New Site BAD

Old post from last week. So, I'm trying out this theme and I have partial posted Girlie in the featured image that I can't see in the header of this page, but it is in the reader. Wha? How? UGH! I thought I stuck her in the post as add media, but I must have…

Got up, still stuck

Last Saturday Just don't bother reading this. I'm whining, because my painkiller is not working. Eight paragraphs summed up into a three sentence summary. Oww! Painkiller is supposed to kill the pain, not cause sobbing and mind fuzz. I called a "rubberband" a plastic bag and "onions" eggs today and that was before the double…

3am, not 4am, not 5am

Placate the gods Really, cause I have nothing better to do. Obviously, I have pissed off the insomnia gods. I should build a temple in my front yard Set it alight and hope the gods notice before the local fire department. Next month, I will try building a mud tower to placate the angry- pain,…

Mistakes

My mom had to get me out of the hospital. It was like the doctor (Dr. B) didn't speak the same kind of English I spoke last weekend and they were going to experiment with my medication indefinitely until I brought my mom in to threaten fire and brimstone to get me out of a…

There I was

watching one of the many batman movies and without warning I found my self sobbing loud, uncontrolled wake up the household sobbing. The fire in my back was exacerbated by being on my stomach watching a movie in bed, the perfect place the wrong position. I couldn't stop the flow of tears and I could…