I’ve been

Holding back the vitriol in hopes of gaining some perspective about the teenage animal My Child. Wild, elusive, inconsistant baffling, frustrating, instigating volatile, persecuted, open then closed Resistant to reality, rebellious struggling to find self losing self when it gets too comfortable self sabotaging, maturing in his immaturity This stage of adolesence would be better…

Wishes

I can wish for mud to stomp in and throw like all good toddlers do. With glee and abandon mud splashes on clean shoes and white tights. Why not. Life is here to jump in it. Roll in it, share with friends. Mudbath anyone?

I take the good with the bad

I took a break from writing and the world fell in. Not really. All of us had some flu, then a virus, one case of upper respiratory infection and now I have head cold, 'cause life just wouldn't be fair without a winter cold. Girlie is happy and speaking more I walked into her room…

A minor coup

I backed up my computer named the fifty unnamed phantom documents floating on my desktop that stalled then crashed Text Edit After a hard shut down I repaired my disk permissions twice for luck found my external hard drive backed up everything then opened what used to be Simple Text Every time I click "Save…

Flaws

Craving a person to fill a hole, the space that never completely filled as a child Or, was hollowed out during the tumult of living with flawed adults I feel the void like my lungs can't completely fill with air when I have a chest cold A wanting seeping escape of air from the body…

Drifting

I feel like I have fallen into the fog it is more accurate to say the fog has descended upon me I can hear the waves lapping upon the shore, I look down and see grey mist not my feet nor water My relationship with pain is odd as an 'on the wagon' cutter, I…

August

Sure, I'm still working on the civility of being an overwhelmed mother of four who can barely carve time out of the day to write my blog. Sigh, I remember this stage. The squirrelly, I never leave the house just for me unless I have a doctor's appointment, feeling. Time for Girlie to go to…