He surfaced

He surfaced in the wee hours of the next morning An anniversary of his first full mental collapse (Not counting the partial ones) Surprisingly, My children are just as unpredictable mood wise as I seem to be (unstable yet) functionally, disabled most of my days moving pots, mixing soil and planting seeds

May update

May 9, 2017 9am Going to court today to fight for residential custody of children already in my custody. The school district is making me do it. I really don't care about the tax implications, or the possibility of child support. I just want My Child to go to a school district where there are…

I had an

Epiphany, you know the thought that seemed like a good idea at the time, but has become the thorn in my side Like most of my art projects I suspend disbelief because well anything really is possible I don't always have the "dose of reality" trait that should have allowed me to become a draftsman…

Sure

My art has been in my head more than in my hands these days Grabbing a handful of kentucky bluegrass winding through the stick trellis I notice a vine that meanders into the green with red veins The urge to pull falters as I cultivate another found plant for my ever expanding cottage garden Of…

Exhausted

I write with one arm underneath the keyboard, too lazy to get a hot water bottle for my sore wrist. The heat penetrates to the aching bones it feels good to rest without a toddler a teen toddler and a brooding young man. Life being what it is becomes a hassle not worth discussing. I…

If only

If only we could be individuals living in the country, meeting at town to trade goods and learn news of the town we visit once a week. Sure this news is interesting not really life affecting. I'd rather know who was born, whether we'd have enough cows, sheep, pigs and chickens to feed the families,…

March 2017

I wanted to post an update, but just don't have the energy to write and write, so here are some photos. It was warm and sunny until a couple days ago. I even dug a little garden in the back yard. Then it snowed and the will to stay awake was buried under the clouds.…

Winter?

I'm waiting for winter to begin It is cold-ish, but a good blizzard makes Ohio feel like home. Our weather is blowing all over the country just not stopping here. Could I have six inches of snow, please? My plants are not dormant, just shivering in confusion. The sap runs slow. It's just not cold…

Three Letters

This cat has a name with three letters. Bun As with all rescue pets the name game is played He looks like a... not a ... Does he respond to... He doesn't blink when you call him... Girlie calls him Bunny. Well, she screams and squeals BUNNY! As he vaults over the safety gate. Safe…

A tear

A tear falls and I find that it's pouring from my eyes and won't stop. Cathartic, sure but will it feel better soon? All I can do is work on the humans I have at home. Teach responsibility they don't see at school. Explain life from my point of view not as the view. I…