It is funny the lives we live the friends we cling to and the aspirations we have lost and found along the way I have a love of characters When I get bored (have insomnia) I read books by self published authors A good author creates a story that takes me out of my pain,…
Holly Jolly Music
Have a holly jolly merry rest ye weary gentlemen silent silver bells and ivy drumming like a little drummer boy while yuletide chestnuts pop pipers leaping milk maids dancing swan and geese swimming golden rings of birds, hens, turtles and doves a boar's head, partridge and a duck without being run over by a reindeer…
last month sometime
It's funny how sleep deprived I felt while I wrote through the nights last year The new bags under my eyes tell me volumes about my quality of sleep or lack thereof recently For the past two months I have been trying to sleep only to find I sleep in chunks A chunk in the…
Well, December is Coming
In theory my blog looked idle empty devoid of life my reality was just as busy as ever I have reduced my stressors distanced myself from some of the crazy that follows me Physically I'm stronger my bifocals and anti depressant are too My anxiety in the evenings is pretty constant with crushing chest pain…
Garden thinking planning 5/12/2018
I promised myself I would go outside everyday this season In a struggle of my own creation I check for humans then I open the door An hour later I find my cellphone is dead the bluetooth headset hugs my neck in case I need help or company in the weeds of my own design…
Invasive or hearty perennial
If I have to spend two years pulling rhizomes of a beautiful yet wild sunflower's cousin that has taken over a portion of my yard then it must be invasive I never thought when I harvested the flower from the side of the road that it would turn into an aggressive hard to eradicate invasive…
This morning
This morning in the garden I wondered about wild mini daisies Why are they everywhere in my yard is it like the great dandelion epidemic of 1978 In the front yard a toddler picks a flower for their mother A dandelion The mom accepts the flower but leaves it on the porch when they go…
Permission to forgive
I read a blog about forgiveness this is not about a person I perceive to have wronged me This is about creating a foundation for my perpetually absent self-esteem Perhaps I need a dowsing rod to find the correct location to dig for it Buried by years of clay and sand this small seed must…
Diesel
There is a special place in hell for people who have been impatient rude intolerant insensitive judgemental That place is my bedroom right next door to the diesel tractor that is doing something in the driveway next to my bedroom I really don't care what they're doing as long as it stops soon Maybe they…
Compartmentalizing*
Sure the world is falling apart but dinner needs to be cooked Girlie needs enough sleep for school tomorrow's clothes need to be laid out Are her shoes wet? Does she have a dry pair of school shoes? Where is the daily folder? Has the backpack been taken out of the car? Minor questions building…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 