It

It is funny the lives we live the friends we cling to and the aspirations we have lost and found along the way I have a love of characters When I get bored (have insomnia) I read books by self published authors A good author creates a story that takes me out of my pain,…

Holly Jolly Music

Have a holly jolly merry rest ye weary gentlemen silent silver bells and ivy drumming like a little drummer boy while yuletide chestnuts pop pipers leaping milk maids dancing swan and geese swimming golden rings of birds, hens, turtles and doves a boar's head,  partridge and a duck without being run over by a reindeer…

last month sometime

It's funny how sleep deprived I felt while I wrote through the nights last year The new bags under my eyes tell me volumes about my quality of sleep or lack thereof recently For the past two months I have been trying to sleep only to find I sleep in chunks A chunk in the…

This morning

This morning in the garden I wondered about wild mini daisies Why are they everywhere in my yard is it like the great dandelion epidemic of 1978 In the front yard a toddler picks a flower for their mother A dandelion The mom accepts the flower but leaves it on the porch when they go…

Permission to forgive

I read a blog about forgiveness this is not about a person I perceive to have wronged me This is about creating a foundation for my perpetually absent self-esteem Perhaps I need a dowsing rod to find the correct location to dig for it Buried by years of clay and sand this small seed must…

Diesel

There is a special place in hell for people who have been impatient rude intolerant insensitive judgemental That place is my bedroom right next door to the diesel tractor that is doing something in the driveway next to my bedroom I really don't care what they're doing as long as it stops soon Maybe they…

Compartmentalizing*

Sure the world is falling apart but dinner needs to be cooked Girlie needs enough sleep for school tomorrow's clothes need to be laid out Are her shoes wet? Does she have a dry pair of school shoes? Where is the daily folder? Has the backpack been taken out of the car? Minor questions building…