last month sometime

It's funny how sleep deprived I felt while I wrote through the nights last year The new bags under my eyes tell me volumes about my quality of sleep or lack thereof recently For the past two months I have been trying to sleep only to find I sleep in chunks A chunk in the…

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Well, December is Coming

In theory my blog looked idle empty devoid of life my reality was just as busy as ever I have reduced my stressors distanced myself from some of the crazy that follows me Physically I'm stronger my bifocals and anti depressant are too My anxiety in the evenings is pretty constant with crushing chest pain…

I’ve been

I've been outside planning pulling plotting stacking soaking seeds peat pots and pellets This is a grow from seed year last year I bought plants on sale at the end of season scratch and dent discontinued and clearance sections at local greenhouses Growing plants by seed is an acquired taste You will get used to…

Mother’s Day

Holding Girlie in my arms she sleeps smiling in innocence I don't have memories of being held I remember the soft hand on my forehead checking my fever there was always a fever I was not a frail child Keeping up with older brothers climbing jumping swinging running was natural for the youngest to do…

In my dreams

This morning I woke up with the memory of a dream Someone I don't know thought I was special enough to help carry the tremendous weight of a desk on my head (You know the old school desks that hold your entire fourth grade world the lift up top with the metal reservoir below) For…

Girly

We knew that the surgery would be quick and painful without a long recovery The ENT doctor was professional and anticipated no problems The drive there was harrowing Put a toddler in a car drive in rush hour traffic only to get stuck one exit before the destination It took thirty minutes to get to…

Snow pants

in the frozen northern Ohio December I remember blizzards of winters past Digging tunnels through my back yard with my brothers shoveling driveways with my boys only to need to shovel again at our studio Frozen gloves, crunchy scarves, frosted glasses shovels, snowblowers, lawn tractor plows snow squalls, flurries and ice barriers made by state…