It's funny how sleep deprived I felt while I wrote through the nights last year The new bags under my eyes tell me volumes about my quality of sleep or lack thereof recently For the past two months I have been trying to sleep only to find I sleep in chunks A chunk in the…
Well, December is Coming
In theory my blog looked idle empty devoid of life my reality was just as busy as ever I have reduced my stressors distanced myself from some of the crazy that follows me Physically I'm stronger my bifocals and anti depressant are too My anxiety in the evenings is pretty constant with crushing chest pain…
I’ve been
I've been outside planning pulling plotting stacking soaking seeds peat pots and pellets This is a grow from seed year last year I bought plants on sale at the end of season scratch and dent discontinued and clearance sections at local greenhouses Growing plants by seed is an acquired taste You will get used to…
Invasive or hearty perennial
If I have to spend two years pulling rhizomes of a beautiful yet wild sunflower's cousin that has taken over a portion of my yard then it must be invasive I never thought when I harvested the flower from the side of the road that it would turn into an aggressive hard to eradicate invasive…
Mother’s Day
Holding Girlie in my arms she sleeps smiling in innocence I don't have memories of being held I remember the soft hand on my forehead checking my fever there was always a fever I was not a frail child Keeping up with older brothers climbing jumping swinging running was natural for the youngest to do…
In my dreams
This morning I woke up with the memory of a dream Someone I don't know thought I was special enough to help carry the tremendous weight of a desk on my head (You know the old school desks that hold your entire fourth grade world the lift up top with the metal reservoir below) For…
I’m having an electronic games day 4/14/2018
Tetris Galaxy and Wordscapes puzzles on my iPhone and Kindle are keeping me afloat. Have an argument with My Child, play Tetris. Have another bad conversation with the housemate, play Wordscapes. I guess I could find a word search book, but they get swallowed by the house. Thinking angry thoughts I fire up the Kindle…
Girly
We knew that the surgery would be quick and painful without a long recovery The ENT doctor was professional and anticipated no problems The drive there was harrowing Put a toddler in a car drive in rush hour traffic only to get stuck one exit before the destination It took thirty minutes to get to…
Why sleep when I could write a letter instead.
3/23/2015 Venom spewing is a description of one of my angry letters. This is not the letter obviously. Mama bear can get angry when defending her cubs against anyone she sees to be a real threat. My ex. I won't play the game I don't like the moving goal posts I love my children and…
Snow pants
in the frozen northern Ohio December I remember blizzards of winters past Digging tunnels through my back yard with my brothers shoveling driveways with my boys only to need to shovel again at our studio Frozen gloves, crunchy scarves, frosted glasses shovels, snowblowers, lawn tractor plows snow squalls, flurries and ice barriers made by state…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 