"Stop touching me! Don't touch my hair! I'm not getting up, you took my blanket! Stop spraying me! I still have time! If you leave the room, I'll get up. I'm not getting up until you turn the light off. You can't make me take it. Come on Mommy! We have to leave. I'm going…
Entering
This morning I entered into Blogland Bleary, blurry eyed, but full of words My dreams bleed into the morning winds The moist air of Ohio tells me of another humid day to come wishing for a working air conditioner in this house when I know I should just do laundry in the chill of the…
Head, Shoulder, Knees and Toes
Tingling toes legs knees and thighs The occasional pulse of pain radiating down my left leg ending at my kneecap. OWW My back frozen in place is the source of today's misery. Wiggling my toes and moving my feet are the first steps of waking up my back. Left leg rotation drag my left foot…
I
Just turned into a pumpkin. Poof! Gotta Go See Ya Later Time flies when you're having fun No, I don't have a self portrait of myself as a pumpkin. Interesting thought though.
Girlie Sits
Like a big girl at the counter eating her cereal. Adamant refusal to sit in her high chair but pulling herself up three feet to sit on a high metal bar chair brought in for me to sit on in the kitchen while making biscuits with a screaming backache The Silent Sentinal noticed that she…
Task List
Freak out about the change in my prescription plan that makes my old anti-depressant cost $190. Done- Start weaning myself off old anti-depressant after getting advice from the internet. -Done Start taking small amounts of new anti-depressant. -Done Stop ADHD medication cold turkey -Really Done Visit My Neurologist -Done Find a new primary care provider…
Near the lake
I woke up at 3:33 this morning an all time low When my bear came in the bedroom with dinner last night I asked him about the time, because it is becoming hard to keep track of it. He said that during his break from work he noticed that I wake up a the pre-crack…
Up at some ridiculous hour
3:00am I accept that I have insomnia I accept that I am not a traditional anything I accept that I have vivid dreams that stick to my consciousness I accept that I write better poems than stories I accept that I have always been a dreamer, planner, plodder I accept that four hours of writing…
Five AM
I've been up for two hours fretting about doctors and their bed side manners or lack thereof A tear fell as I remember this past week in bed, in pain wanting to work wanting to walk wanting to pick up Girlie I got stuck with my arms over the top of her crib. She…
So it takes how much abuse to develop self esteem?
I've been independent for how many years lurking in the shadows avoiding blows and running to be safe and feel secure looking for someone to hold my hand feeling like crap with the self esteem of a slug (who knows, they may be the self esteem powerhouses that glide on their own slime. Actually, lets…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 