Waiting for the other shoe

My eldest surly reverie has posted a cry for help a goodbye on instagram Why can't I find my boy? He's replying in letters not sentences like he's drunk on misery Depression, ADHD, anxiety, bipolar mood swings unchecked by a stabilizer because it makes his mornings groggy Better sluggish than struggling to stay alive, of…

Singing a high C, parts 1 2 +3

In my dream it was a high C reality told me that I was screaming in my sleep My Bear startled awake asking if I was okay, he kissed my shoulder and told me I was not singing I have these clusterpluck dreams I'm searching for something while doing something complicated Like starring as the…

The Weekend

I spent the weekend resting if you can call it that tossing and turning never getting comfortable but not exerting myself. These 2am mornings are something else. I tried to stay up late (9:30pm) and for that I was gifted with a 2am wake up dream. Sigh, I'm really very tired of this. When it…

Mistakes

My mom had to get me out of the hospital. It was like the doctor (Dr. B) didn't speak the same kind of English I spoke last weekend and they were going to experiment with my medication indefinitely until I brought my mom in to threaten fire and brimstone to get me out of a…

Ghost Cat

Ghost cat woke me by repeatedly walking across my feet to wake me from my sleep. (I checked there were no mice having a party at the end of my bed.) What a surprise I have a new friend Better to have a ghost feline for a friend than nightmares that wake me up gasping…

Crack

I've started waking up at the crack of dawn. No, the spine of dawn. The crack is a bit lower and I'm talking middle of the night time here. That pleasant time where you have to remain silent or you could wake a sleeping Girlie. The Sentinel and the Bear seem to sleep like babies,…

Bread Crumbs

I was thinking about leaving a written trail of bread crumbs for someone to find. A list of items, memoirs, notes and photographs that explained my actions. Then I remembered, my anonymous blog is a trail of bread crumbs. My crumbs drop behind me as I walk into the leaves the crunch swish of yellow…

What is the cost?

How much does a back cost? Can you quantify the value of irreplaceable parts? I asked My Bear, "How much is my back worth? (deleting a bunch of extraneous replies...) "Really, can you put a value on the replacement cost of my back?" "Do you know how much I had to pay for the truck,…