He surfaced

He surfaced in the wee hours of the next morning An anniversary of his first full mental collapse (Not counting the partial ones) Surprisingly, My children are just as unpredictable mood wise as I seem to be (unstable yet) functionally, disabled most of my days moving pots, mixing soil and planting seeds

I’ve been

Holding back the vitriol in hopes of gaining some perspective about the teenage animal My Child. Wild, elusive, inconsistant baffling, frustrating, instigating volatile, persecuted, open then closed Resistant to reality, rebellious struggling to find self losing self when it gets too comfortable self sabotaging, maturing in his immaturity This stage of adolesence would be better…

I am thankful for

the spontaneous hot hugs from my little germ spreader. Girlie has a fever, but has had no seizures. Hacking cough, sniffling schnozz, drool covered fingers, surrounded by a striped red, grey and cream comforter and the debris of used tissues. She has learned to ask for tissues instead of sharing the wealth of ectoplasm with…

Leaning

She leans on me sweet smelling snuffling in my ear she nuzzles my cheek and says, "Cuute." These spontaneous moments of words show me that all is right with the world in my house. Sure, my boys are teenagers They have "toddler brain" in the worst possible way. I, me, mine, now is the mantra…

I take the good with the bad

I took a break from writing and the world fell in. Not really. All of us had some flu, then a virus, one case of upper respiratory infection and now I have head cold, 'cause life just wouldn't be fair without a winter cold. Girlie is happy and speaking more I walked into her room…

This Angry Child

Doesn't care about his court appearance this morning Refuses to worry that he could be taken from my home Tells me that I'm the only one who cares about it Really? What parent wouldn't care about the hand of law taking their child? Oh yeah, his father doesn't care My children have been taken from…

I’m supposed to pick my battles

I'm supposed to breathe deep and not yell back at My Child, a screaming oppositional defiant, six foot three inch teenage boy who cannot will not complete his homework or show proof that he has completed the work he submitted. I fear that he has been submitting empty documents just to get his phone back…

Sensory Processing Issues

I'm having fun with Girly who is a sensory kid. She loses her mind in the bathtub. (Hysterical screaming and will injure herself to get out of the water) Brushing her hair was a scream fest as well. I just shaved her hair down to 1/4" of cute curls that we still can't brush without…