I’ve Been trying to get up since 7. The little girl abandoned me for cartoons and I was left Finally alone, tears poured down my face. I thought about calling someone texting someone to tell them I feel wasted, used up and discarded like an old tissue. No one wants to receive that call: “Hi.…
Spliced Holidays
For the fourth year in a row I have had to explain how the holiday parenting schedule works with my Ex Funny his attorney wrote it (Why doesn't he call her?) Each year I get that call "It's not fair... two holidays in a row... I have to cook a large dinner..." It's all about…
Essentials: Peppermint Eucalyptus and Tea Tree
In this summertime of flea mosquito wasp and spider bites I search for something not allergy inducing Can anything heal Girlie's golden scarred skin? I forgot about an aloe plant Deet free peppermint eucalyptus tea tree smell nice but do not stop the marauding insect hoards that have invaded my home The perpetual body…
Pure chaos
I've been running non stop since the last post I'm the only driver in a home of six One has been in and out of the hospital 50 miles away three times since February Another has track practice every day after school and has to be picked up from school. Another has another school that…
Girly
We knew that the surgery would be quick and painful without a long recovery The ENT doctor was professional and anticipated no problems The drive there was harrowing Put a toddler in a car drive in rush hour traffic only to get stuck one exit before the destination It took thirty minutes to get to…
Gift 12/28/2016
Finally getting Girlie to go to sleep this morning was my gift from her. I'm sure she didn't plan it any more than the average three year old plans to be awake screaming through most of the night, but I'm taking this gift from my child as a cherished one. My fourth child has some…
Why sleep when I could write a letter instead.
3/23/2015 Venom spewing is a description of one of my angry letters. This is not the letter obviously. Mama bear can get angry when defending her cubs against anyone she sees to be a real threat. My ex. I won't play the game I don't like the moving goal posts I love my children and…
A response (draft)
12/18/2017 "For me, I try to remember, when breaking, that every crack is an opening." Mark Nepo Thanks Calen for your post. I'm using it as a prompt. I thought of the french toast, I made yesterday. Brown eggs smashing against the summer colored bowl green yellow and orange landing with a 'glop' into the…
So I spent November
So I spent November aiding sick people, I know them well - my children Of course it started with preparations for the holiday then a visit from my Eldest Surly Reverie who was feverish and phlegmy (Yeah, that is a word) I forgot to mention My Bear's father (I guess I should call him Senior…
Three year anniversary
WordPress tells me it has been three years since the beginning of my wandering blog. Three years ago, I had a happy baby with gurgling skills Now, bubbly Girlie is talking like a pro. Responding to sentences is still rough. She answers, with "I Girlie" to most questions. Sometimes an "I three," slips out with…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 