It's funny how sleep deprived I felt while I wrote through the nights last year The new bags under my eyes tell me volumes about my quality of sleep or lack thereof recently For the past two months I have been trying to sleep only to find I sleep in chunks A chunk in the…
Opposites
I'm not so fond of people but I get lonely Yoga feels good but is more satisfying in a class I love singing but never want a solo Making art is what I do though more fulfilling when I teach I have tremendous fears and I still keep moving
Dame’s Rocket
That's the name of the most beautiful sweet scented flower that bloomed free in the back yard of my old house. Not short it grows vertical almost overnight well I probably didn't notice while I was chasing babies in that century home. My habit is to pull weeds that could be goldenrod I have friends…
So it takes how much abuse to develop self esteem?
I've been independent for how many years lurking in the shadows avoiding blows and running to be safe and feel secure looking for someone to hold my hand feeling like crap with the self esteem of a slug (who knows, they may be the self esteem powerhouses that glide on their own slime. Actually, lets…
Obviously, I don’t get it.
He puts his head down as I talk He never responds when I ask questions Obviously, my questions hurt him His soul is a one celled organism Speaking to no one hearing only attack, slight, and complaints. I want to know because I don't understand. I do not want or intend to hurt him. Getting…
There I was
watching one of the many batman movies and without warning I found my self sobbing loud, uncontrolled wake up the household sobbing. The fire in my back was exacerbated by being on my stomach watching a movie in bed, the perfect place the wrong position. I couldn't stop the flow of tears and I could…
Time to get up, stop being a slug
This pain fire traveling down my spine is driving me out of bed I have my happy light on and I see that the curtains have a light behind them as well I have made it through the insomnia and have to go stand in the true light outside. No, I don't mean Close Encounters…
Secrets
(Anger alert) Disclaimer: This blog is less than friendly, be warned. I was thinking in my haphazard way about how I thought adults should communicate honestly, with dignity about their feelings without intentionally hurting the person they fell out of love with. Honesty and emotions don't mix well, you might say. Or, of course emotions can…
Uxorial Bliss (Anger alert)
Uxorial Bliss http://www.oxforddictionaries.com/us/definition/american_english/uxorial Disclaimer: This blog may be considered to be less than friendly, be warned. The thing is once you say "I do" to the wrong person in front of God, family and whatever friends you may have in attendance The state, your minister your family and your "friends" (I say that in parentheses…
This morning
I cried on my laptop. I promised myself I would not soak another electronic device. It is just a matter of time before I cause the sizzle, zap, poof of death to another piece of technology. How many tears does it take to fry a mother board. Does the CPU have a tear shield for…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 