North Eastern United States September 16, 2016 Dear Anxiety, I know we have been together for most of our lives, but I think it's time we cut the cord that ropes us together to the tracks with the locomotive coming. Any way I look at it, one of us is going to be thrown under…
3am, not 4am, not 5am
Placate the gods Really, cause I have nothing better to do. Obviously, I have pissed off the insomnia gods. I should build a temple in my front yard Set it alight and hope the gods notice before the local fire department. Next month, I will try building a mud tower to placate the angry- pain,…
What is the cost?
How much does a back cost? Can you quantify the value of irreplaceable parts? I asked My Bear, "How much is my back worth? (deleting a bunch of extraneous replies...) "Really, can you put a value on the replacement cost of my back?" "Do you know how much I had to pay for the truck,…
And yet
I never write in the evenings, and yet here I am, sitting on the couch wondering what has happened and whether I should get my Happy light out and turn it on. I forgot, it's that time of year when the sunlight reduces and I get SAD. I did go to the second acupuncture visit…
My Eldest Surly Reverie
So, he walked to his grandmother's house with his tail between his legs. Not really, he rolled his bike with most of his bags on his back with righteous indignation to her house livid that I had dared to push my will upon him. My seventeen year old man child seems to be cycling bi-polar.…
Again I woke up then it turned into a mini diatribe about my chaos this week……….Very Long
This is a mini diatribe. Not really so mini, but two thousands words written over the week. I understand if you only make it through the first five hundred words before you start screaming, cussing or just walk away. Maybe I should have broken it up into small bits, but it really makes more sense…
I’m really sorry
Tears are pouring down my face I wish I could go back in time and protect my boys I just didn't see that the light at the end of the tunnel was a train. I had hope for so long before I started to derail my car from the train The boys were along for…
Now I celebrate
Tofutti peanut butter chocolate syrup A sleeping, walking child she took four steps today I completed my sonnet I completed my collage I walked outside in the daytime and didn't have a panic attack. We buy our house tomorrow I will have a studio again I will have peace again I'm not running away, I'm…
Yesterday
I was having a great day or something and then the phone rang and I had to speak to an agency, (in the middle, my mother came over,) our big purchase loan coordinator, (get papers signed, scanned and emailed,) then deal with my ex. Dearie had a melt down and I followed suit soon after.…
Obviously, someone was born yesterday, but it wasn’t me.
Youngest older child wants to be grown patterns behavior after his oldest brother's antics resulting detentions, in school restrictions, suspensions things his brother never did at school, just at home worst success ever epic fail Dysfunction is poisonous like unwashed chicken, undercooked but looking tender the stomach cramps, the hours of uncomfortable ick Child above,…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 