The family vortex threatens again. Tales of chaos, destabilization, bad choices and I will not get sucked into that mess.
Vortex
A Reply a Diatribe, More Information Than You Can Shake a Stick At
This letter is in response to the post below. I suppose I should warn everyone that my about page was long for a reason. I occasionally purge without obscure poetry. I have a lot to say. I edit most of it out. If you can't take it, well, take a break, go for a walk,…
In Good Company
Held in the highest esteem we raise our children cherish our partners honor our parents hug our cats and dogs yet we choose to neglect ourselves. Women are strong. We carry children in our bodies they cling to our spines for ten months, not nine. We endure scrutiny and sacrifice at others expense to provide…
It All Started at 5am
The roaring in my ears woke me once again. it was at a different pace than the snoring that I can sleep to from my bear. My mind raced to figure out why I was trapped in an avalanche underwater on the second floor. Or, why do I get to hear my blood rushing around…
I had to change my hat
Today Supermom reared her ugly head I woke up on a search and seizure mission to find the contraband that we know exists in a school locker I'm rusty and out of practice Ugh, I forgot to check the current backpack... Defeated by the wily young offspring I left empty handed but confirmed something My…
Weary
I have become safer in my random dreams than in reality. Nightmares, night terrors and dreams at least can fade to the back of my consciousness when I finally wake up. A panic attack can appear to be an unreasonable response to negative stimuli. An anxiety attack may also appear to be an unacceptable response…
She who gives of herself
Dear boys, ex husband and boyfriend, You don't ask me why I'm having a hard time. In fact, you don't ask but you seem to expect I have habitually, pathologically provided in spite of my weakening condition. She who gives of herself from girl to girlfriend, mother to wife, the perpetual caretaker and caregiver, is…
Fatalistic Optimism or Beyond the Horizon of Sanity
Friday's anxiety attack was inevitable Saturday's shutdown was to be expected Sunday's outcome is undetermined. Friday, after losing an important thing, tearing the house apart looking for it and finally finding it in the first room I looked, was a sign. The end is near. (I know I could have said nigh, but come…
Not By the Hair of My Chinny, Chin, Chin!
Older yet fertile Hairier yet female Wishing for the pimples of my youth. Would someone please explain to me why men lose the hair on their heads as they age and women gain hair on their chins? I obviously missed the health class where they explained that at a certain age, my male hormone…
Semantics
The silent sentinel stood, crying child in his arms. I wondered if he still thinks I can fix everything by just holding my crying baby. Perhaps holding a child while crying does fix everything. Holding a child who is crying is different. Empathy vs. Sympathy. Now, if I rewrite this it means something altogether different. The silent sentinel…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 