In Good Company

Held in the highest esteem we raise our children cherish our partners honor our parents hug our cats and dogs yet we choose to neglect ourselves. Women are strong. We carry children in our bodies they cling to our spines for ten months, not nine. We endure scrutiny and sacrifice at others expense to provide…

I had to change my hat

Today Supermom reared her ugly head I woke up on a search and seizure mission to find the contraband that we know exists in a school locker I'm rusty and out of practice Ugh, I forgot to check the current backpack... Defeated by the wily young offspring I left empty handed but confirmed something My…

Weary

I have become safer in my random dreams than in reality. Nightmares, night terrors and dreams at least can fade to the back of my consciousness when I finally wake up. A panic attack can appear to be an unreasonable response to negative stimuli. An anxiety attack may also appear to be an unacceptable response…

She who gives of herself

Dear boys, ex husband and boyfriend, You don't ask me why I'm having a hard time. In fact, you don't ask but you seem to expect I have habitually, pathologically provided  in spite of my weakening condition. She who gives of herself from girl to girlfriend, mother to wife, the perpetual caretaker and caregiver, is…

Semantics

The silent sentinel stood, crying child in his arms.  I wondered if he still thinks I can fix everything by just holding my crying baby. Perhaps holding a child while crying does fix everything.  Holding a child who is crying is different. Empathy vs. Sympathy. Now, if I rewrite this it means something altogether different. The silent sentinel…