My fears become terrors my worries become reality I lose what is most precious as I search my self conscious for a lost child, lost photographs things I knew I saw when I was awake yesterday. I can't make myself wake but when I do the panic is still there though reality quickly seeps into…
I was hoping to roll over this second morning until I realized that I am stuck on my back with my legs up or down. There is no roll to the left or right, only pain. This is PMS right? an added feature to leaving crime victim stains in bed soaking blankets in cold water…
Ghost cat woke me by repeatedly walking across my feet to wake me from my sleep. (I checked there were no mice having a party at the end of my bed.) What a surprise I have a new friend Better to have a ghost feline for a friend than nightmares that wake me up gasping…
I was thinking about leaving a written trail of bread crumbs for someone to find. A list of items, memoirs, notes and photographs that explained my actions. Then I remembered, my anonymous blog is a trail of bread crumbs. My crumbs drop behind me as I walk into the leaves the crunch swish of yellow…
by four different voices just the name there was no shaking of a shoulder nor tapping of a toe no morning baby babble just the sound of my name in my ears as if my four dreams coalesced and each participant needed my divided attention. I turned my head with each sound until I had…
Funny how a person from a recurring dream can resurface from your sub conscious after years of absence. Vince and I went to college together though I know he never existed He reminds me of stories that I almost remember knowing that he was never there. We are always in an apartment together he's the…
A cough, then I heard a piece of paper rip. Not a slow tear, but the fast rip of "I'm done with this piece of paper forever." Symbolic dreaming again? What am I done with now? Am I fed up with the paperwork I must do to stay alive, eating and breathing. Find the 1"…
The roaring in my ears woke me once again. it was at a different pace than the snoring that I can sleep to from my bear. My mind raced to figure out why I was trapped in an avalanche underwater on the second floor. Or, why do I get to hear my blood rushing around…
The searing heat woke me this morning. Eyes open, I saw the bare bulb shining spot light style over the bed. Not blurred vision means I'm still asleep. Blinking, I wondered why there was a hot spot under my left side on the bed. Groaning, I rolled over to the itching, burning pain in my…
Following a week long binge of life and mini mayhem, I decided that I needed to take a nap on Friday. Taking a nap is a dangerous thing for me because my brain never seems to shut down, or slow down even when I'm asleep. I have dreams, nightmares and night terrors sometimes all rolled…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 