I am extremely embarrassed by praise or awards. Call me weird, anti-social or terror stricken; these words match me very well. I was stuck for a polite response to a Blog Award I received in a comment, so I fretted and said nothing, but felt the guilt of silence weighing heavily upon me, so I…
Abrupt Abridged Austere A...A...A... Brief Basic Bunny B...B...B... Dr. Seuss for logophiles
Weary
I have become safer in my random dreams than in reality. Nightmares, night terrors and dreams at least can fade to the back of my consciousness when I finally wake up. A panic attack can appear to be an unreasonable response to negative stimuli. An anxiety attack may also appear to be an unacceptable response…
Juvenile Pachyderm Crime Ring Memoirs
October 25, 2014 For a brief time in the morning, my mind is clear. I can think cohesive, coherent thoughts. I masticate my phrasing as I chew on the inside of my bottom lip. I hear the bubbling leak of the toilet next door, the sounds of traffic roaring by the house, the slam of…
I think too much
Following a week long binge of life and mini mayhem, I decided that I needed to take a nap on Friday. Taking a nap is a dangerous thing for me because my brain never seems to shut down, or slow down even when I'm asleep. I have dreams, nightmares and night terrors sometimes all rolled…
Today I Give Myself a Name
Today, I give myself a name. I am a scribe whose name is unimportant though my thoughts and dreams are fundamental. Yours Faithfully, Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie (Scribe Nickname Daydream)
Fatalistic Optimism or Beyond the Horizon of Sanity
Friday's anxiety attack was inevitable Saturday's shutdown was to be expected Sunday's outcome is undetermined. Friday, after losing an important thing, tearing the house apart looking for it and finally finding it in the first room I looked, was a sign. The end is near. (I know I could have said nigh, but come…
Not By the Hair of My Chinny, Chin, Chin!
Older yet fertile Hairier yet female Wishing for the pimples of my youth. Would someone please explain to me why men lose the hair on their heads as they age and women gain hair on their chins? I obviously missed the health class where they explained that at a certain age, my male hormone…
Semantics
The silent sentinel stood, crying child in his arms. I wondered if he still thinks I can fix everything by just holding my crying baby. Perhaps holding a child while crying does fix everything. Holding a child who is crying is different. Empathy vs. Sympathy. Now, if I rewrite this it means something altogether different. The silent sentinel…
This Morning
This morning purred and gurgled until I started out of bed with questions about medications, incomplete previous commitments and rumblings to let me know that bathing and breakfast were the most important things of the day. I'm so gonna be late this morning.
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 