Morning Angry

I woke up this morning angry enough to chew nails and spit bullets. Sounds kinda Marvel comicesque but my jaw was sore (from bruxism) when I woke up from an angry swearing dream, where I was arguing with demons from my past. (Not actual demons, just people I don't feel like naming anymore) This dream…

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Math

After an unpleasant parent pick up from a not too pleasant ex and new girlfriend due to My Child being put in the middle and acting like a brat in the parking lot. I would like to ask you for help. Math help. Cross your fingers and lets do some algebra together. Not really algebra…

Mistakes

My mom had to get me out of the hospital. It was like the doctor (Dr. B) didn't speak the same kind of English I spoke last weekend and they were going to experiment with my medication indefinitely until I brought my mom in to threaten fire and brimstone to get me out of a…

Not

"Not quite right in the head," Deanne, makes me think we are sun creatures who should hibernate with the bears, frogs, toads and other Spring/Summer creatures. The slowing down of the brain and the slowing down of the heart rate while slowing down the care for self makes me sure I should be a sloth…

Is there a medicine woman out there?

My body shifted by four days a 23 day cycle is nothing to laugh at result: anemia acupuncture emotional release reset talk therapy garden therapy lack of sleep grief, guilt, bad news, mini ocular mushroom cloud migraines have a golden color in the pitch black inside my head terror, hyperventilation and a panic attack during…

Growth and what works

Sun, soil and water works. Internet installation works. Girly smiling works. My ADHD went haywire this morning. I cleaned, I made calls I weeded, I almost planted Sweet Woodruff around the pine tree. The female internet installer was a wonder to me. She was petite blond and single. I asked how many linewomen were there…

Daily Affirmation

Daily affirmation: I am strong and I fill my life with positive people. It has been suggested that I do grounding and meditation breathing three to four times a day. Probably 6-8 times to help my current situation. I am in the court ordered process of removing my steel from my ex's studio. When I…

The week’s trauma

He lost a father while I gained a son my eldest son alienated, my child, his youngest brother while gaining sympathy from the silent sentinel. His father planned for him to leave by any means. When I arrived Thursday ES was in handcuffs The goal being for him to snap. I forced them to remove…

My Eldest Surly Reverie

So, he walked to his grandmother's house with his tail between his legs. Not really, he rolled his bike with most of his bags on his back with righteous indignation to her house livid that I had dared to push my will upon him. My seventeen year old man child seems to be cycling bi-polar.…