A Division of Labor: Body vs. Mind

(This is a summary post about my general health. Not for the faint of heart.) Scratching the cluster of hairs on my chin My thoughts divide 1. why are five hairs there now? 2. how do I keep from obsessing while I wait for test results? 1a. I am of the age where "unsightly facial…

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Special Dreams

Red hot poker of pain woke me a long emotional draining dream I was confused couldn't remember what was real or just one of my special dreams The baby girl in question was mine I gave birth to her because I remember I was there the question of who her father is was the main…

I have time

All the time in the early morning crickets are chirping roaring silence Yeah just like that no cars, just nature sounds Yesterday was surreal sitting outside a courtroom holding Girly No one could come to watch her so she came with me us to the hearing We waited outside for the lawyers to talk about…

No time

Briefly, panicking again I don't have time for this boys have to be awake Girl needs a new diaper and clean clothes, plus food Have to go to court again for My Child, I'm worried I have to go. I have to take a shower and put on a dress with tennis shoes bright lime…

August

Sure, I'm still working on the civility of being an overwhelmed mother of four who can barely carve time out of the day to write my blog. Sigh, I remember this stage. The squirrelly, I never leave the house just for me unless I have a doctor's appointment, feeling. Time for Girlie to go to…

Conversation

Palpitations every evening make me wonder Why is it? Why am I? What shall I do? Breathe and weed, breath and weed. Barefoot in soil, step in the garden Catch a child mid air Laugh and stare, laugh and stare. She giggles at bugs then asks for a hug. I understand I live for this…