Arms extended gripping posts I bend at the waist Snap goes the spine my hips relax as I elongate my vertebrae. Breathing in rotate the rib cage counter clockwise hold it and breathe out Anchor my right gluteus maximus by planting my heel on the floor (try a half kegel, really) and pivot my left…
Head, Shoulder, Knees and Toes
Tingling toes legs knees and thighs The occasional pulse of pain radiating down my left leg ending at my kneecap. OWW My back frozen in place is the source of today's misery. Wiggling my toes and moving my feet are the first steps of waking up my back. Left leg rotation drag my left foot…
Erector Spinae Spasms
So, I wake up at 5am with muscle spasms. These spasms result in pain exquisite and tangible. Unlike my psuedoseizures, the cause is not all in my head. The fault is in the erector spinae that seem to have become sadistic BDSM participants who do not hear my safe words to stop causing me pain.…
Gratitude
Why assume that gratitude is from a gift that one person freely gives to another person. Why can't you have gratitude for the essence of something like air? Without air, you will cease to be While grasping for it gasping for it eyes bulging for it thank the elements for air.
Five AM
I've been up for two hours fretting about doctors and their bed side manners or lack thereof A tear fell as I remember this past week in bed, in pain wanting to work wanting to walk wanting to pick up Girlie I got stuck with my arms over the top of her crib. She…
Clean the yard/Save the Greenhouse (It’s White)
I wrote this Sunday edited it Monday between naps. Yesterday was a forced march clean up the yard afternoon that I imposed on my men/boys How long does it take to complete a chore really? Two piles of leaves have been sitting in my driveway for over a month and I want them gone today.…
Five appointments
My case worker came to pick me up yesterday She is becoming more human less stiff and more compassionate now that she gets it, my chaos is constant. With Bear's hospitalization 60 miles away with no actual date of release, my drop and twitch moments and my drop moments coming more and more frequently No…
I want my Paxil back I want Paxil and a new back I want my old back back and Paxil I want my innocence back so I won't need Paxil I want to not feel pain, while I take Paxil I want to dream of being pain free though Paxil will take my dreams I…
The Falling Season
I'm not a clutz but I look like one recently I have been falling a lot. My culprit is my back spasms that come out of nowhere they are triggered by movement strain, walking, sitting while sleeping or waking. My favorite spasms are the screaming spasms that remind me of my brother's charlie horses when…
New Site BAD
Old post from last week. So, I'm trying out this theme and I have partial posted Girlie in the featured image that I can't see in the header of this page, but it is in the reader. Wha? How? UGH! I thought I stuck her in the post as add media, but I must have…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 