Drifting

I feel like I have fallen into the fog it is more accurate to say the fog has descended upon me I can hear the waves lapping upon the shore, I look down and see grey mist not my feet nor water My relationship with pain is odd as an 'on the wagon' cutter, I…

I have time

All the time in the early morning crickets are chirping roaring silence Yeah just like that no cars, just nature sounds Yesterday was surreal sitting outside a courtroom holding Girly No one could come to watch her so she came with me us to the hearing We waited outside for the lawyers to talk about…

An Online Family: Loss

I never know what to say I have feelings of a dread when I should feel relief for her No more pain I am selfish to want another conversation another look into her life her perspective, her struggle with mental illness devastating depression There is so much unsaid I'm a day late for her online…

A load

There really is no one there the hours pass and I hear birds cars and trucks on the road no one speaks to me my face scrunches ready to cry. my tear ducts refuse to cooperate. Another dry day of dread and solitude. This from a woman who likes to garden alone should be able…

The Sad Gardener

This dark cloud has me bedridden stomach burning in response to my foul mood. Triggers land like landmines in my head in my house, in my life. Betrayed by someone with an agenda. My lifestyle is offensive. I have upset the mowing community by mowing without gas. These events cause undue harm to my fragile…

Pink Slipped

Sure, I have my support team who deserts me when I need them I am told to surrender myself to the emergency ward to be detained until they decide what to do with me I am shamed for driving myself in for help why should I travel by ambulance when I have a car? I…

The Sandbox Writing Challenge 36 — Lonely part 2

https://promptlings.wordpress.com/2016/04/19/the-sandbox-writing-challenge-36-lonely/ What makes you feel lonely?   What makes me feel lonely is the realization that someone I love is not listening, so why bother talking anymore I have a toddler to cuddle, children to talk to, friends to commiserate with cats to confuse me and strangers to meet who will feign interest if only…

Breaking Rules

Rule number one Do not start the day with two pseudo seizures. This does not bode well for the day Rule number two On that same day do not take one's sick bear to the emergency room. Rule number three Wait in the car, do no try to be supportive to one's bear because you…

AHHHH!

Update I got one call back from a therapist just checking on me and I called my psychiatrist back about my sinking depression that may have been caused by my new Latuda or the decrease in Paxil. I think it was the decrease in Paxil. So, my Paxil went back up and I got to…