https://promptlings.wordpress.com/2016/04/19/the-sandbox-writing-challenge-36-lonely/ What makes you feel lonely? What makes me feel lonely is the realization that someone I love is not listening, so why bother talking anymore I have a toddler to cuddle, children to talk to, friends to commiserate with cats to confuse me and strangers to meet who will feign interest if only…
Breaking Rules
Rule number one Do not start the day with two pseudo seizures. This does not bode well for the day Rule number two On that same day do not take one's sick bear to the emergency room. Rule number three Wait in the car, do no try to be supportive to one's bear because you…
AHHHH!
Update I got one call back from a therapist just checking on me and I called my psychiatrist back about my sinking depression that may have been caused by my new Latuda or the decrease in Paxil. I think it was the decrease in Paxil. So, my Paxil went back up and I got to…
FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
I have coping skills that make me hard to diagnose. I will use my anger toward the (!!($%%%$) who stole my credit card to pull me out of my creeping depression, yeah, righteous indignation and finger waving with a stomp of the foot to prove that I'm only half functional Son of a pickled frog…
Winter Sunshine
The clouds parted I saw rather than felt the sun as the wind blew camouflage to block the light "Ah, winter," I sighed, "when will it end? Each year the season picks its victims and we shut down lacking vitamin D cursing the bitter cold the ache the stiff joints that creak louder each year.…
Obviously, I don’t get it.
He puts his head down as I talk He never responds when I ask questions Obviously, my questions hurt him His soul is a one celled organism Speaking to no one hearing only attack, slight, and complaints. I want to know because I don't understand. I do not want or intend to hurt him. Getting…
Five appointments
My case worker came to pick me up yesterday She is becoming more human less stiff and more compassionate now that she gets it, my chaos is constant. With Bear's hospitalization 60 miles away with no actual date of release, my drop and twitch moments and my drop moments coming more and more frequently No…
I want my Paxil back I want Paxil and a new back I want my old back back and Paxil I want my innocence back so I won't need Paxil I want to not feel pain, while I take Paxil I want to dream of being pain free though Paxil will take my dreams I…
So I never sleep
So I never sleep during regular hours. I go to sleep in the dark and wake in the dark I have to wait hours until I see daylight What use would that be? I can wake and wash in the wee hours of the morning Hysterics follow He never says goodbye, my bear he is…
Digging myself out
If you could foresee one accomplishment in your future, what would you like it to be? from Impromptu Promptlings https://promptlings.wordpress.com/2015/11/24/the-sandbox-writing-challenge-16-crystal-ball/ Iaminahole inthedark wishingfor something otherthan thisbleak darkfogIam in.Nocutting willsolveit Nomedicine seemstocure it,doctors seemtothink itisajoke Iamajoke Imustbefaking WhydoInotwant tobelockedup safeanddrugged untilIcannot feelthepain? Reality is painfulsometimes mixed with joy thedepressive coctail has a purposesothat I can appreciate…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 