This morning I woke up with the memory of a dream Someone I don't know thought I was special enough to help carry the tremendous weight of a desk on my head (You know the old school desks that hold your entire fourth grade world the lift up top with the metal reservoir below) For…
Go jump in the lake, October 11, 2016
An altercation with an unseen assailant pushed me into a body of water I'd rather avoid Terrified of water, I swam Where I don't know the shore disappeared as soon as I got wet Fearing that I would die I kept moving so I would not succumb to hypothermia It is cold, the water is…
Circular Dreams
"Mommy, would you answer the phone?" The Silent Sentinel's request woke me from a not so pleasant sleep. The phone rang it was my ex husband. Sigh, there are things I hate waking up to and he is one of them. The call of course being about My Child, who left his medicine here this…
Up at some ridiculous hour
3:00am I accept that I have insomnia I accept that I am not a traditional anything I accept that I have vivid dreams that stick to my consciousness I accept that I write better poems than stories I accept that I have always been a dreamer, planner, plodder I accept that four hours of writing…
I want my Paxil back I want Paxil and a new back I want my old back back and Paxil I want my innocence back so I won't need Paxil I want to not feel pain, while I take Paxil I want to dream of being pain free though Paxil will take my dreams I…
Bread Crumbs
I was thinking about leaving a written trail of bread crumbs for someone to find. A list of items, memoirs, notes and photographs that explained my actions. Then I remembered, my anonymous blog is a trail of bread crumbs. My crumbs drop behind me as I walk into the leaves the crunch swish of yellow…
The Seventh Time
I woke for the seventh time this morning instead of the normal sentence and ocular flag waving I woke to a stream of circular logic attempting to plan my day but starting at the end and ending in the middle. 1. Hysteria, sobbing 2. Did I pay for my pre-paid cell phone 3. Did I…
Day 2. Step by Step, I’m wandering around exhausted
Hidden in plain sight You know that feeling you get when you're looking for something for half an hour: keys, purse, wallet, laptop computer. You know you walked by it fifteen times, but you can't see the forest for the trees because your toddler tormented you for hours on end last night because you fell…
Clear Water dreams
I keep having a dream that I'm lost on my way to my new home, driving around the curves and down into the valleys and around the bend until I drive into the water that is running across the road. The water becomes a lake and I fear how far I will have to swim…
Miasma
I read a little and drift off to sleep floating in the miasma that is my brain airplane noise over head birds in trees in the rain trucks and cars pass on a wet road we are not in the flight path that was a large jet coming from where? Why do I still hear…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 