Thanks Calen for that writing prompt found here: https://promptlings.wordpress.com/2018/04/07/saturday-sound-bites-scary/ "07 SaturdayApr 2018 Posted by calensariel What are your three biggest fears? What about them scares you so much?" Do I have to limit it to three? (Disclaimer: I have an anxiety disorder and my fears are an unfortunate part of my daily life. I make…
August
Sure, I'm still working on the civility of being an overwhelmed mother of four who can barely carve time out of the day to write my blog. Sigh, I remember this stage. The squirrelly, I never leave the house just for me unless I have a doctor's appointment, feeling. Time for Girlie to go to…
So I never sleep
So I never sleep during regular hours. I go to sleep in the dark and wake in the dark I have to wait hours until I see daylight What use would that be? I can wake and wash in the wee hours of the morning Hysterics follow He never says goodbye, my bear he is…
Small Girl goes shopping
Once upon a time, the small girl went shopping. It was her mother's favorite past time. To visit a store meant hours upon hours of sitting with her brothers in the car parking lot waiting while her mother tried on clothes at shopping centers, specialty women's stores and boutiques Or, she would have to go…
Stuck with two things
I was hoping to roll over this second morning until I realized that I am stuck on my back with my legs up or down. There is no roll to the left or right, only pain. This is PMS right? an added feature to leaving crime victim stains in bed soaking blankets in cold water…
Note to Self
Do not find things to do in the middle of the night to fight insomnia. The basement is a dangerous place for you- you budding pyromaniac. Those boxes of old patterns are extremely flammable. Cleaning with fire is a bit drastic. Water is not enough when they spill flaming from the wood burning stove. Asbestos…
3am, not 4am, not 5am
Placate the gods Really, cause I have nothing better to do. Obviously, I have pissed off the insomnia gods. I should build a temple in my front yard Set it alight and hope the gods notice before the local fire department. Next month, I will try building a mud tower to placate the angry- pain,…
Mistakes
My mom had to get me out of the hospital. It was like the doctor (Dr. B) didn't speak the same kind of English I spoke last weekend and they were going to experiment with my medication indefinitely until I brought my mom in to threaten fire and brimstone to get me out of a…
There I was
watching one of the many batman movies and without warning I found my self sobbing loud, uncontrolled wake up the household sobbing. The fire in my back was exacerbated by being on my stomach watching a movie in bed, the perfect place the wrong position. I couldn't stop the flow of tears and I could…
Secrets
(Anger alert) Disclaimer: This blog is less than friendly, be warned. I was thinking in my haphazard way about how I thought adults should communicate honestly, with dignity about their feelings without intentionally hurting the person they fell out of love with. Honesty and emotions don't mix well, you might say. Or, of course emotions can…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 