Briefly, panicking again I don't have time for this boys have to be awake Girl needs a new diaper and clean clothes, plus food Have to go to court again for My Child, I'm worried I have to go. I have to take a shower and put on a dress with tennis shoes bright lime…
24 Partial Sanity list- Long and sad, so get tissues or read it another day
I said I would not post today because it is one of my high anxiety days, but fell asleep last night in Girlie's room watching her breathe, so I'm posting today. I'm sorry. I startled awake on my left side at 2 am face down on my hand in front of my computer a car…
My empty hand
I show my empty hand then I play my cards like the M emblazoned in the pigment of my palms I can be no more no less than what I am Mother, Metalsmith, Mystery, Me I show my breaking heart then march ahead into the fray like the Matriarch of plants and children I nurture…
A Not So Charming Bracelet
The boys three, no longer bright and shiny. They have wear and tear, their enamel is faded and cracked. They are still inextricably linked to each other though separated from their parents. A not so charming bracelet.
In Good Company
Held in the highest esteem we raise our children cherish our partners honor our parents hug our cats and dogs yet we choose to neglect ourselves. Women are strong. We carry children in our bodies they cling to our spines for ten months, not nine. We endure scrutiny and sacrifice at others expense to provide…
Why does the panther cross the road?
Why does the black panther cross the road? She sails through the air after impact Her nine lives simultaneously fly skyward to join her astrological family. I know there aren't thirteen months in a year, but there should be some homage to my panther. The Aztec astrological guardian cat of my dreams, strong, jet black…
I was looking for a polite way to insult someone
I was looking for a polite way to insult someone and have come to the conclusion that there is no way. My overactive guilt complex alerted me to the fact that it is offensive to insult anyone, even when they deserve it. Darn, I was really looking forward to calling someone a "Ding-Dong," until I…
Fatalistic Optimism or Beyond the Horizon of Sanity
Friday's anxiety attack was inevitable Saturday's shutdown was to be expected Sunday's outcome is undetermined. Friday, after losing an important thing, tearing the house apart looking for it and finally finding it in the first room I looked, was a sign. The end is near. (I know I could have said nigh, but come…
As usual
As usual, I have an appointment. I think it's a good idea to get to the appointment. I begged two doctor's for two weeks to get the referral for said appointment. I've looked forward to the appointment. I've talked about it to a couple people. I NEED to go to the appointment. I never make…
Soft Anger
Should I be softer when I'm angry? Did lashing out in my defense scar someone? Why feel guilty for justifiably standing up for my self. Careless thoughtless anger shows no regard for the soul of the one who hurt me. My self is fragmented. I'm told to stand up for myself Don't be the victim.…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 