So, I'm trying to remain calm instead of the primal being I have become... This is your last chance to stop reading before I launch off on a tangent about my feminine issues. Remember you have been warned. ..while I am having hormone adjustments (the life force is draining out of me as we speak)…
It felt good until…
Friday I managed to do some thing too much of something I did a full day's work almost and got myself exhausted and had to be taken to the hospital in an ambulance. Why, oh why can't I remember to stop while I'm ahead. It felt so good to feel capable again. To lift steel into…
Got up, still stuck
Last Saturday Just don't bother reading this. I'm whining, because my painkiller is not working. Eight paragraphs summed up into a three sentence summary. Oww! Painkiller is supposed to kill the pain, not cause sobbing and mind fuzz. I called a "rubberband" a plastic bag and "onions" eggs today and that was before the double…
This morning
I cried on my laptop. I promised myself I would not soak another electronic device. It is just a matter of time before I cause the sizzle, zap, poof of death to another piece of technology. How many tears does it take to fry a mother board. Does the CPU have a tear shield for…
ADHD Life Lesson Number 1
Some days I have a lot to say other days I still have a lot to say but can't seem to finish a thought or complete the simple task of push ing the pub lish but ton . ADHD Life Lesson Number 1 I didn't leave the rake in the driveway hidden in a pile…
I tried
I tried to think of how to gather my thoughts in a linear way but I man aged to t r i a n g u l a t e
Is there a medicine woman out there?
My body shifted by four days a 23 day cycle is nothing to laugh at result: anemia acupuncture emotional release reset talk therapy garden therapy lack of sleep grief, guilt, bad news, mini ocular mushroom cloud migraines have a golden color in the pitch black inside my head terror, hyperventilation and a panic attack during…
And yet
I never write in the evenings, and yet here I am, sitting on the couch wondering what has happened and whether I should get my Happy light out and turn it on. I forgot, it's that time of year when the sunlight reduces and I get SAD. I did go to the second acupuncture visit…
24 Partial Sanity list- Long and sad, so get tissues or read it another day
I said I would not post today because it is one of my high anxiety days, but fell asleep last night in Girlie's room watching her breathe, so I'm posting today. I'm sorry. I startled awake on my left side at 2 am face down on my hand in front of my computer a car…
Day 2. Step by Step, I’m wandering around exhausted
Hidden in plain sight You know that feeling you get when you're looking for something for half an hour: keys, purse, wallet, laptop computer. You know you walked by it fifteen times, but you can't see the forest for the trees because your toddler tormented you for hours on end last night because you fell…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 