The pool is deep

Girlie runs to me and says "owside." She wants to play outside in the yard. I gather courage, presentable clothing two pairs of shoes and we venture into nature. She sees birds "burrd" flying in the sky "bye-bye" she waves. "dares wuun!" she points and yells as a buzzard swoops in circles looking for not…

Lonely Cry

The train wails a lonely cry as the cars behind drone and screech metal on metal rumble rumble rumble squeal squeal wail wail wail rumble rumble rumble The house shakes from the vibration The roar groan permeates these thin walls and single panes of amplifying glass Faintly I hear the horn saying, GOOD BYEEEE, GOOOD…

So much for sleep

I wish! 4:something and my back woke me up I could have sworn I was sleeping I even have the residue of a dream floating in my brain. Can't catch it though. It must have made it to the door at the end of the hallway It fled like Fall does when Winter arrives swing…

Task List

Freak out about the change in my prescription plan that makes my old anti-depressant cost $190. Done- Start weaning myself off old anti-depressant after getting advice from the internet. -Done Start taking small amounts of new anti-depressant. -Done Stop ADHD medication cold turkey -Really Done Visit My Neurologist -Done Find a new primary care provider…

Near the lake

I woke up at 3:33 this morning an all time low When my bear came in the bedroom with dinner last night I asked him about the time, because it is becoming hard to keep track of it. He said that during his break from work he noticed that I wake up a the pre-crack…

At what point

At what point Do I get to have some rest. This break was a vacation for all parties except for Girlie except for Me. I don't like breaks they hurt and take at least six weeks to heal I prefer rest, a good night's sleep, a long nap with a fizzy drink next to my…

Once Again

I popped awake at 4:36am cause it is fun to be awake in the dark, in the quiet in the house full of breathers sleeping. MY mind is going as fast as my heart rate. I replied to an email, I tried to fix my blog, patchy, glitchy, no featured images unless I repost them…

Crack

I've started waking up at the crack of dawn. No, the spine of dawn. The crack is a bit lower and I'm talking middle of the night time here. That pleasant time where you have to remain silent or you could wake a sleeping Girlie. The Sentinel and the Bear seem to sleep like babies,…