8/24/2015 funny how life just keeps avalanching and knocking down trees in its path until the whole mountaintop rolls off the cliff. ES Reverie, won five honorable mentions for his participation in the Scholstic Art competition, yesterday. His reaction to it was closer to the polar opposite of what I expected, but what else is…
Happy Aging!
Saturday, I turned 47. A day earlier, ESR turned 20. Monday my mom turns 72. That's a whole bunch of Leos. My herd came over to visit. I guess it was a party. Everybody talking at once. Girlie bouncing off the couch My brothers called to wish me "happy aging." I'm having that sinking problem…
I have problems with anti-psychotic medications
and mood stabilizers too. I just got out of the hospital again. This time the stay was unexpected because I could not control my thoughts. This too shall pass. My diagnosis changed again. This young enthousiastic and perceptive psychiatrist took me off the mood stabilizer and antipsychotic (latuda and lamictal) but added wellbutrin to my…
Vivid Dreams
Everything was so realistic but wrong, the bathroom was in the wrong place the windows on the wrong sides of the cute little house and the furniture was not mine, neither were the plants. My actual former landlady and I had a minor argument about plant ownership. "What a cute pot," she pointed to the…
Morning Angry
I woke up this morning angry enough to chew nails and spit bullets. Sounds kinda Marvel comicesque but my jaw was sore (from bruxism) when I woke up from an angry swearing dream, where I was arguing with demons from my past. (Not actual demons, just people I don't feel like naming anymore) This dream…
I resisted the diagnosis -Mental Diary
I denied it. My ex used to say it like he was some kind of specialist. He also would say it as a kind of accusation a curse word "Bi-polar" with his British accent. "Bi-polah" while he laughed at me in front of the kids. I used to tell him he would die alone, not…
I Struggle (Long Post)
I wrote this in response to Kitt's blog post. http://kittomalley.com/about/my-story/ . Her unedited response is below my edited email. On Thu, Jan 29, 2015 at 7:30 AM,I wrote: To: Kitt OMalley From: Me Subject: Re: [Kitt O'Malley] Contact Me Comment: Dear Kitt, Thank you for posting your story on your blog and for following my…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 