I forgot that it is all up to me to create order in my chaos I forgot I am addicted to sugar, chocolate and caffeine I forgot the crash is lower and more spectacular after a binge I forgot that people who offer you what you are addicted to are enablers I forgot that just…
I said I would not post today because it is one of my high anxiety days, but fell asleep last night in Girlie's room watching her breathe, so I'm posting today. I'm sorry. I startled awake on my left side at 2 am face down on my hand in front of my computer a car…
but once again, the brain took over and hijacked the morning. The dreams nightmared in my skull until I woke up hearing a knocking at the door. WOOOODPECKERS! PSYCHOTIC OCD BIRDS DRILLING FOR GRUBS They knock with the intensity of the police during a drug raid,(my neighbors were dealers, so this I know with certainty.)…
This is a mini diatribe. Not really so mini, but two thousands words written over the week. I understand if you only make it through the first five hundred words before you start screaming, cussing or just walk away. Maybe I should have broken it up into small bits, but it really makes more sense…
In my lucid dream, my ex husband asked for an apology; I heard it in my ear as if I were having a real conversation with him. That woke me from a sound sleep. Like mortar after years of pressure I turned to sand and trickled out of the joints blown asunder by wind, rain…
Incredibly late for the Six word saturdays prompt. Very fitting for the current situation, Life is shifting going half kilter, Girly has learned to climb gates, The eldest has returned from hiatus, The tall one only says little, My child has issues with rules, Hell, don't we all in way? Raising children couldn't be less…
I served his purpose. created his brood. did the research, created his business. filed a lot of taxes, took business classes. An art major running a business, hmmm. created and won an award for our business plan, did the photography which he still uses on his website, wrote the press releases, corresponded with clients (as…
Tears are pouring down my face I wish I could go back in time and protect my boys I just didn't see that the light at the end of the tunnel was a train. I had hope for so long before I started to derail my car from the train The boys were along for…
Disclaimer: Feel free to skip this post. I'm full on venting/ venom spewing but it has been edited as usual. I'm supposed to create some type of teflon shell, that my ex's behavior is supposed to slide off of. Well, where the hell do I buy it? What kind of body dip, doesn't just suffocate…
I say nothing Then I say too much My mouth always gets me in trouble I have a bad habit I state the obvious No one really like that kind of honesty My ex called it "The honesty flaw" I can't lie to people, for any reason. I also don't appreciate being lied to for…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 