Here I am: retroflexed, missing the boat and invasive

Reinventing myself yet again I don't feel the numb static from last year while I watch my hands shake uncontrollably That dull ache of void screaming for attention Hysterical while sad or Sobbing with anxiety Shifting medications tweaking my body chemistry with a man doctor who barely spends five minutes with me each month. A…

Difficult

Dear Readers, I guess you can tell I'm struggling to remain focused I'm pulled like Silly Putty in the hands of a toddler Not understanding the reality of sticky objects she puts me in her sock I'm spending time fending off emotional assaults attention seeking behavior sorting through my purse being accused of yelling and…

Transitions

Getting ahead seems like an impossibility when tripped up by pain, most foul, smile I laugh in the face of discomfort There is no position to ease the fire in my back. On futon, on mattress, on couch, on floor, on mat, on carpet, no more no more. I've a sleeping cat on my thighs…

A day

Waking up early I wondered what my birthday would bring? A hummingbird sighting or the female cardinal hunting in the pine branches I hovered in the living room pacing five steps left five steps right Would an activity tracker chart my steps when I'm nervous and can't sit still? Claiming my heart rate and releasing…