This morning I hopped out of bed, not so bright eyed or bushy tailed Pleased though, Girlie finally settled to sleep on the beanbag next to the bed Sleeping with a five year old the size of a six year old who must hold onto a body part my body part to feel safe and…
Saturday Sound Bites-Scary
Thanks Calen for that writing prompt found here: https://promptlings.wordpress.com/2018/04/07/saturday-sound-bites-scary/ "07 SaturdayApr 2018 Posted by calensariel What are your three biggest fears? What about them scares you so much?" Do I have to limit it to three? (Disclaimer: I have an anxiety disorder and my fears are an unfortunate part of my daily life. I make…
He surfaced
He surfaced in the wee hours of the next morning An anniversary of his first full mental collapse (Not counting the partial ones) Surprisingly, My children are just as unpredictable mood wise as I seem to be (unstable yet) functionally, disabled most of my days moving pots, mixing soil and planting seeds
Everyday Inspiration, Day Nine: Writing and Not Writing
I struggle to maintain balance so I can write again I take stolen time during morning moments to process thoughts re-establish even keel and find my tipping point. Ask the woman struggling with mental illness how she finds clarity. I peer under the laundry and unopened mail Search through the yard of green volunteer…
Drifting
I feel like I have fallen into the fog it is more accurate to say the fog has descended upon me I can hear the waves lapping upon the shore, I look down and see grey mist not my feet nor water My relationship with pain is odd as an 'on the wagon' cutter, I…
An Online Family: Loss
I never know what to say I have feelings of a dread when I should feel relief for her No more pain I am selfish to want another conversation another look into her life her perspective, her struggle with mental illness devastating depression There is so much unsaid I'm a day late for her online…
Milk
Spilled milk and vacuum cleaners Cause all manner of distress when the planets are aligned just so
Light days: Jennifer Tilly
(I wrote this a month ago - July 8, 2016) Today was to be a light day I succeeded in oversleeping misplacing medicine and missing the foodbank. Time to cut myself some slack. I'm down, overwhelmed and noon has yet to arrive. Girlie is watching Home on the Range. She deserves that "little patch…
Speaking in Preambles
"Preamble noun we memorized the preamble to the Constitution: introduction, preface, prologue; foreword, prelude, front matter; informal intro, lead-in; formal exordium, proem, prolegomenon. Apple Dictionary Version 2.2.1 (143.1)" I have a pet peeve. Well, you know me by now. I've got many issues, to be honest. Ha ha My cup runneth over in that department.…
The Psychiatrist Shuffle
Getting a psychiatrist or therapist is like getting a new pair of shoes. Sometimes they fit in the store and you don't take them off and walk home on a cloud. Other times you think the fit is right in the store, then try them on when you get home and realize they only fit…
Amanuensis Sobriquet-Reverie 