He surfaced

He surfaced in the wee hours of the next morning An anniversary of his first full mental collapse (Not counting the partial ones) Surprisingly, My children are just as unpredictable mood wise as I seem to be (unstable yet) functionally, disabled most of my days moving pots, mixing soil and planting seeds

Sensory Processing Issues

I'm having fun with Girly who is a sensory kid. She loses her mind in the bathtub. (Hysterical screaming and will injure herself to get out of the water) Brushing her hair was a scream fest as well. I just shaved her hair down to 1/4" of cute curls that we still can't brush without…

Reading

Sometimes when I read a book, my mind starts to wander. I could blame the author and say, the book does not hold my attention due to some flaw or other. The reality is my attention is divided, scattered, completely absent. I could blame age and the pitter patter of many little feet, a depletion…

Happiness vs. Gratitude

Little hands squeezing my neck hello, " UP" she yells she is my happiness for now, today. Happiness is fleeting. But gratitude is a different thing than bestowing happiness, dear Santa. Gratitude requires the grace to accept something meant to help, like groceries from my neighbors or the mowing of my lawn because I can no…

Which one

which one of my weird children cut a spiral into the tip of my pencil? It's like a path leading from the wood up to the summit of the lead. They must have used a sharp object and spun the pencil on it. Peculiar or abnormal, it makes writing seem like double vision. If I…

I didn’t sleep well

Atrial enlargement on the right side of the heart can stop a heart a cardiovascular disease I wanted nothing to do with cardiomyopathy that may be genetic but has been occurring for more than a year, but My Child was never taken to the doctor. Why would he need a doctor for chest pain? Obviously,…

My dear vehicle -part 2

So $1,000 turned into $1,300. for which I was eternally grateful. My mechanic broke everything off my car that could not be removed by unbolting due to the large amount of corrosion and fracturing rust by Friday morning. He gave me the option of going to another shop to get my muffler custom built that…